Finally took a penny

was at the convenience store and bought a banana. indian dude says, "dat will be one dollar one cent, please."

i have a $20 and a $1. that's it. so i panicked... THEN i saw the penny dish there... ya know, the one you put your unwanted pennies in.

i took one. handed it and the $1 bill to the man and walked out.

and as i walked down the cold, broad street, i realized: that was the first time in my entire fucking life that i've taken a penny out of the dish. first time. ever.

i'd put countless pennies in and never taken one out.

now i'm takin' them motherfuckers out every chance i get.

Warm, honest, tender, nurturing

before ever laying eyes on samantha james, i'd already long been in love with her -- or, her voice, at least.

and maybe that's all that matters.

her voice -- warm, honest, tender, nurturing -- is all i really want in a woman. a little rough, a little rasp, every now and then, is okay too.

lately, i've been letting music affect me more than usual. guess i'm vulnerable. and the music, it acts as a sort of medicine.

in this case, it's helping, 'cuz i totally dig what samantha is sayin' here about having fallen miles from yesterday, breaking waves of change.

when you're on the fucking bottom, there's nowhere else to go but up.

so here's to gettin' the fuck up!!!